What did her heart beat for? She was no longer sure of the answer to that question. Before Mexico she might have listed the boyfriend of the week, her planned vacation to Paris or her next weekend away with the girls. But after what happened in Mexico the only thing in her life seemed to be the tattoo on her wrist and the obligations, responsibilities and duties associated with it.
Oh to be free. To have the shackles fall from her hands and feet. Perhaps if they did fall she could dance - dance her way back into her old life. But would she fit in there? Sometimes she imagined going back in time to tap herself of a year ago on the shoulder. What would she say? Don't go to Mexico? Don't let those bastards hold you down while they tattoo your wrist and force you to inhale their legacy? But in the quiet moments of the night, when the clock had struck two and the wolves were howling at the door in more ways than one, she knew. She knew deep down and heavy inside that they would have found her anywhere on earth and jammed her birthright down her throat.
So telling herself of a year ago not to go to Mexico would be a waste of time. Telling herself a year ago that she was about to become a bone singer was probably also out of the question. Who would believe that crazy shit?
What could she have told the her of a year ago? What would have made a difference in the massive whirlwind of changes and the sense of responsibility that had thundered into her life like a storm from hell? Smile more, perhaps. Care less about what other people think. Eat more ice cream. Have less expectations. Some things are valued too late, and by the time you realise how precious they are, they've slipped through your fingers and shattered on the ground at your feet.
6 comments:
I love this post. Makes me want to read more, explore all the details of the heroine's life. Great take on the theme this week!
I'm with Grace there! Want more of this! I'm intrigued, drawn in to the beginnings of a story, with so many tantalising hints at details. Great post!
intriguing piece, I certainly want to know more, also I can relate to how she wonders whether she would relate to the her she had been before she went to Mexico, i felt like that when I was abroad for a while.
I want to hear more about Mexico!
Thanks for your nice comment on my post.
I loved this!! I want to read more of the story - learn more about these 'birth right' people and what is to be a bone singer!!! I am so intrigued tell me more...don't leave me starving like this!! Excellent job.
Excellent -- and provocative...you've got me thinking about Mexico!!! And I agree -- what would you tell yourself the "you" of a year before (or any year) and would it matter? Would that "you" listen to the you from the future?
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